"Anim na linggo ka nang nakahiga jan at umiiyak.
Masakit, alam ko. Hindi naman ibig sabihin e hihinto na ang pag-ikot ng mundo
mo. Kasalanan mo naman kasi. Tsaka
‘langya, Ser! Maligo ka naman!
Magtoothbrush. Magpalit ng brip. Then saka ka bumalik jan."
"Ano'ng gagawin ko sa singsing na ito?"
"Ser, wala namang kinalaman ang singsing na yan at alam
na alam mo kung ano ang isasagot ko sa tanong mong yan."
"Hindi ko sya pwedeng isanla o ibenta, 'Yumi!"
"I know, Ser. Kahit mukha kang pera at sakim e
hinding-hindi mo magagawa 'yan. May moral ka!"
Nginitian ko sya.
"Kaya amina ‘yan. Wala akong moral kaya ako na ang
magbebenta nyan!"
"Hampaslupa! Wag! Ilalagay ko sa X-Box* yan!"
*X-box, noun (pl. exes’s-box). Kahon na lalagyan ng mga
gamit na may kinalaman sa ex, real or imaginary. Maaaring gawa ito sa hard
plastic, bakal, kahoy or kung isa kang dukha, karton. (In my case, karton ng
pekeng brand ng sapatos).
Tama si Ayumi. Panahon na para makita ko ang liwanag ng
sunshine. In fairness nagtagal din kami ng recent ex ko. Halos kalahating taon!
Kaya nasaktan ako. Hindi ko naman kasalanan kung mapusok* ako sa age na ito.
*Mapusok, adjective. Haliparot, lantod, malandi, popokpokin,
mamagdalenahin.
No, I did not cheat on him... that much...
It happened sa isang bar dito sa Baguio. Inuman, sayawan,
aurahan. Oo, nagwawala ako sa dance
floor pero hindi para mang-akit, manguha ng attention or something. I was there to shake the stress away.
Masaya ang gabi with my friends ChiChi, BonBon, MacMac, at
Tomtom. Lunod sa music, pantanggal
talaga ng stress. Pero nang tumugtog ang classic Madonna hit na Vogue, nabuhay
lalo ang katawang lupa ko. I was so happy and then suddenly may gwapong guy na
nakisayaw sa akin. Since na-establish na natin ang kapusukan ko at kakasabi ko
lang na gwapo ang guy, nakipagsayaw ako at lahat ng kalaswaan ay bumuhos sa
dance floor.
At nang malapit nang matapos ang kanta, he kissed me. I'm
not blaming the alcohol pero i kissed back. Shet!
No, hindi ko inuwi yung guy para magsomething-something.
Kiss lang.
Magkakasunod na malalakas na sapok ang tinanggap ko courtesy
of my firends. Yes, I deserved it. I know that my friends love me kaya nila
ginawa 'yun. Hindi dahil sa nakagawian na nila kundi dahil sa mahal nila ako.
Morning after that, napagdesisyunan ko to come out clean.
Not because nakita ko sa bar na yun ang mga barkada ni Popoi at may chance na magsumbong ang mga friends ko
kundi dahil sa meron akong moral. Capital Lol.
…
Nakaupo kami sa kama habang ako ay nagkoconfess, nagsosorry,
humihingi ng tawad. Umiiyak lang sya. Ako rin.
"Ayumi! Huwag ka nga'ng makinig dyan!" narinig ko
kasing may kumaluskos sa kabilang panig ng pinto.
"Hindi naman ako nakikinig! Nagpupunas lang ako!"
"Ng pinto?" sigaw ko.
"Oo, ng pinto!" sabay malalakas na hakbang then
pa-hina nang pa-hina, kunyaring papalayo.
"Letche, nakikita namin anino mo sa pinto!"
Dedma lang si Popoi. After nun e nagpaalam na siya sa akin.
Si Popoi, hindi si Ayumi. Kinuha nya yung pink na Bench underwear niya sa
drawer. Then nagpaalam sa mga wigs ko at sa mga pusang stuffed toys. Ewan, pero
para sa akin e sweet yun kasi sinakyan nya ang mga kabaliwan ko.
"Pwede bang saka mo na lang kunin 'yung Boracay na
t-shirt mo?"
"Bakit?"
"Di pa kasi nalalabhan mula nung ginamit natin pamunas
ng..."
"Okay, sige." Napangiti siya then umalis.
Napangiti rin ako, with tears nga lang.
4 comments:
shocks,namiss kita kokoi!anteros ito..may iba na akong tahanan..http://movingforwardwithoutyou.blogspot.com/
sana naman may maging magandang update pa senyo ng lalaking may pink na brip
Not only is doing the right things important (praying, attoning for your sins, thinking the right way:::accepting humility, modesty, vulnerability), so is avoiding the wrong things important as well:::"Go and sin no more".
There was a very real perception that bi-racial was much worse for the white than it was for the person of color. The liberal culture screamed racism when there is a very reasonable explanation for this reality::::
In this white punishment known as the United States the person of color has already adopted the disfavors/temptations intended for another race. But by associating/mating with a person of color the white is newly adopting the disfavors of another culture.
And this is the reason why people of color are not welcome in the United States. The gods control everything:::The perception they want to create, the thoughts they want you to have.
People of color can't recover from absorbing the temptations from two cultures. And why they become more and more like so many blacks in America:::Veterans at absorbing the temptations of two cultures.
To further illustrate this is why California's educational system/funding was ranked #1 when California was white:::Education being the basis of the affluent economic system. Now even public higher education has become unaffordable.
The gods placed us all into our own corners of the globe. As such for thousands of years we spent time and reproduced with out own kind.
This is why mobilty/travel, biracial unions/offspring and partaking of other cultures is a sin::::
Each has it's own elements of disfavor, and by experiencing other cultures you are being exposed to these disfavors, which if people may adopt will make their state even worse than prior.
The United States has been considered a "melting pot" where rejects from around the world were sent when kicked out of their motherland.
Remember, this concept of cultural diversity is an element of the liberal platform the gods used to promote societal decay, revealed on the map with the "beast" that is the SanFranciscoBayArea and the spread of social deterioration that spread to the rest of the country and eventually to the entire globe.
Ronald Reagan spent the communist block into submission with defense buildup, and in the process increased the National debt from $1 trillion in 1980 to $6 trillion when he left office.
W charged both the Iraq and Afghanistan wars to the national debt, honest numbers to come.
The gods used W to initiate the "Great Recession" with deliberate legislation/regulation changes, allowing the sub-prime fiasco and corporate irresponsibility/criminal behavior which led to the multi-trillion dollar stimulous package, pocketted by Republican friends and donors::::$5 trillion charged to the National credit card.
This corruption is one element of evil in the party of good. War mongering is another.
Damned if you do, Damned if you don't::::With the Democrats you subscribe to social decay via liberlism, which WILL lead to the Apocalypse. Republicans are being used by the gods to bankrupt the United States, ultimately motivating people to the point of "desperation prayer" once anarchy presides::::Punishment designed to correct your behavior.
I have showed you how to think the correct way, using an example to illustrate. Let's see how many "reverse positioning" examples you can find. There are more.
Wow, namiss kita kokoi pati si Ayumi. :)So broken hearted ka pla? cheer up! ^^
natawa ako sa x-box! meron din ako nyan eh! hehehe
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